Battle of life

I don't exactly recall the begining.
Either where... or when I changed my path.
What I do remember is...

that bright smile
the soft skin
that mellow, mellow voice
that called and brought me in.
"Rest little brave warrior", she said.
sleep through the night
regain your strenght 'til the sun arises...
and so the night lingers long...
and I drank her sweet honey
and I drank some more,
viciOus drink it was...
intoxicating the sea of words,
running through me...
Like a serpent and a flute, I danced... oh I danced.
enchanted, embraced...

"Lay down your armour,
lay down your sword,
tell me you secrets,
your inner deamons,
I will take care of you", she whispered...
while her gentle hand caress my wounds,
my rough skin...
and,...and suddenly
the fire burns no more.
Something has changed,
why does this hand feels so strange?...
and I feel her hand through my throat...

squeezing,

choking.

Without breath,..

gasping,..

my eyes ranged over deep red,
awaking the killer in me.
But...the enchantment,
that sweet poison,
lingers...
has i blurred

she pounded,

grinded down,

punched,

broke me against the ground.

and then she kicked,

and teased,

and I.. did nothing...
not even a sound...
just... blood and dust,
ripped flesh,
broken bones,
and a heart filled with emptiness.
Silence...it is over?..

She stopped and walked away.
smiled and glanced one last time...
But then, she heard my roar,
my feet draging on the blooded leaves.
My aching legs shaking,
only my soul keeps me breathing while i'm still bleeding.

"So you thought I was defeated", I said.
"Just because i'm on my knees" - I said, spitting the blooded dust from my mouth.
Get up. Get up! - I shouted inside...
I'm more than this.
No more beating while i'm weak
I will never surrender to your will
I will always stand up, no matter how i feel.

But you...
You will walk away,
as you did before.
Run as far as you can.
Find another fool to tease and offer that sweet poison

Remember me...when you fall
will still be here,
full body armour and ready,
breathing!...